5-21-10

and maybe the stars are just fireflies
wings fluttering through every constellation that flows from your moonlit mouth
maybe they wait just for me
to light up the night
and fill my heart with hope
whispering wishes in-between scattered thoughts
the sky is silver as we sail through breaking each cloud with outstretched fingers
fireflies darting in every direction
maybe they only fall so they can land on your eyelids
kissing you goodnight
giving faint light to your dreams so they shine every colour of the sunset
exhale each breath softly
we are swirling in this broken galaxy
so full of beauty
fireflies spiraling around us
singing songs we thought only angels knew
we will paint only the most vivid reds and yellows on my eyes so when they close i am reminded of only you and your sunset dreams

5-18-10

delicate fingers play piano tunes on my ribs
each note sadder than the last
subtle tears stream from crystal eyes
and stars escape from your mouth with each fragile word that you speak
Fingers intertwine and love beats through our hearts
breathing synchronizes
constellations burst out of our veins
limbs tangle and faces change to the calmest of expressions
knowing we are safe with one another
safer than we have ever been
to love and be loved
flower petals blow in the wind
with the “he loves me,” and, “he loves me not’s” written on them
lighting strikes the lies
and beauty emits from the truths
nothing but glitter in my eyes
and my heart it dances for you

walk away

5-16-10

You used to cry rhinestones and bleed rubies.
That's how it used to be
Now you just cry tears and bleed blood
And you’re dying
words dance through the air and steal breath away from my lungs
I try hard not to speak or breathe.
For fear it will take away from your beauty
Silver wings outstretch from your back
spreading wide across the radiant sky
i hold my breath as you soar up into great heights
so much further than my imagination could ever see
take me with you
I want to whisper those words into your ears
But silence flows through my fingertips
Into my heart
The sun melts into your soul
And you flutter so far above me
Exhale
I tilt my head up and watch diamonds slide down your face
Memories dripping from your lips
Fingers are reaching out
You are plunging from the sky
Pearls and gold stream behind you
Illuminating everything
You encase me in your wings
Love travels through my body
This is what infinity must feel like

5-15-10

i hide my soul behind tattered wings
feathers falling from me
drifting to you
sunshine drips from yellow petals
your beauty is suffocating
your name tastes like ash on my tongue
like cigarette burns covering flesh
wounded mouths are unraveling all of the promises
these old ghosts are back
the questions you are longing to ask
only they can answer
and i don’t know how to make them speak
hands grasping for my shoulders
i am perfect
perfect imperfection
claws are ripping at what once was reality
now just memories that i can’t seem to forget
i am not good enough for you
my heart is fearful
And full of so many stories
stories i am scared to tell
worn into endless folds
creased paper
unspoken letters
phrases of love
words of desire
only passion
warmth
ask the ghosts
only they can tell you

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5-10-10

i am weeping
ink stained words
falling
falling from the sky
look up, catch them on your tongue
turn yourself into the light my darling
you long for dawn to burn away my fears
yet here i am
in the pale hues of sunset
the finest shades of the night
your soft paper hands reach out
save me
tossing me into the golden tint of the morning
together we fly
weaving through the trees until night falls once again
stars are obscured by clouds
their voices muffled in the wind
and they cry
for they are not heard
darkness wraps around my feet
clawing up my legs
pulling me back
but i hear your voice
soft against my cheek
your sunflower heart
fluttering
sending echoes into my ears
fingertips find one another
trembling hands send morse code messages through our skin
to quivering eyelids longing for sleep
soft lips find each other
and in that moment
i knew we were infinite

5-8-10 2

he sat and listened quietly
listened to her gentle screams
Calm down
Breathe
Look up
Look up and see
There are always rose petals falling from the sky, he said
And her marble
brown eyes
looked up
Staring at the robin egg sky
she whispered
The sky is broken, ugly
But you, you shine
You are my kind of beautiful

5-8-10

her eyes tell you everything
you know she’s struggling
catch her
throw her into the scarlets
the amethysts
and the indigos
throw her into an undeniable slumber
hands
your hands caress the surface
ignoring the imperfections
she feels it – letters combining with one another
words flowing
one after the other
they are trying to escape
I love you
one sentence crawls all over her flesh
leaving little butterfly footprints on her eyelids
your fingers dance across her ribcage
and you’re reaching out
taking hold of her shaking hands
…breathe…
your ear pressed firmly against her chest
listening to her sporadic heart beat
it’s in there, somewhere
trapped in a bird cage
canaries pecking
pecking
eating away at it
leaving only passion behind
you have so much love, he whispered
thousands of words
begging to free themselves from behind her cherry lips
exhaling feathers, for you she said, only you

5-5-10

Our worlds become one
And we are bleeding
Dulled out colours
Faded sidewalk chalk
our minds are glowing
Iridescent, blues, and golds
We are beautiful
Your heart is aching
Cracking from the heat of liquid sunshine that flows through your veins
I won’t let you break
I will never let you break
I will wipe away your tears
And with them the uncertainly will fade
Close your sweet blue eyes
Envision the flowers blooming tomorrow
We will dance upon the petals
Turning our scars into our own heaven
We will get lost in the magic
Fade into the beauty
Our souls will laugh
And comfort what innocence we have left
The earth will once again claim us as its own
And we will melt into the dirt
tangled in a lovers bliss
and there we will forever be treasured
As the stars of the sea

4-23-10

I cannot carry tears in my eyes anymore, it is just my hands are shaking, and I can never get them to stop. My legs follow, and I wan to run, but I can not run far because I am afraid so afraid. I am leaping, and bounding over everything and I know there are meadows and forests just beyond my sight, if only I can make it that far. I am free of sound, alone, so alone. No rhythms, no regularity. All sound has gone except for the sky’s whispers, and the static that surrounds me. Years worth of memories flood my thoughts and flow through my blood. I need to be sewn back together once I let them out. Can you see me? Do you see me? Your eyes are closed, open them. Sadness is shaking you, further and further down you fall, but you have these eyes, use them, you could see me if only you opened them. I want to see you, I need to see you again. We will fall into meadows, laughing, and we will fly through the summer, but only for a moment. I don’t want to be slain by the memories, I don’t want to drown in the thunder. I will pretend you are here, my eyes now closed, reaching out, reaching. But I’m lying to myself, for when I open my eyes I am alone.

4-13-10

my voice is filled with the white noise of sadness, your eyes wander to the floor, unable to maintain eye contact, for fear that my emptiness will seep from my soul and creep into yours. and it seems the whole world is rising as i fall. this fear, fear of everything, yet of nothing at all eats away at me and i can't take it anymore. my stomach turns and turns and my eyes water, and everything hurts, my heart just hurts for no other reason than pain is all it has ever known. and the scars on my body burn as if they are fresh wounds. everything burns like the fires of hell have swallowed me. do you see the pain, do you see the fear? take it, breathe it in, for it is all i have ever been. help me escape, show me the way through the darkness...just show me the way, any way, take me anywhere and i will follow. take me away from the fires, the fires that i see all the time. i can't stop this burning in my eyes, and this burning under my skin never leaves. it's just fire, fire all the damn time.

5-7-10

Your voice sounds like the most beautiful sunrise
i imagine your eyes
they are so full of dreams
you will make it there
every breath you take is like a raindrop
falling
falling
falling in to the depths of the ocean only to be lost in the flood
I will catch them in a jar
I will keep you safe
I promise
I will paint my past on flower petals
And pick each one off and send them to you to piece back together so you can show me that it wasn’t always like this
And we’re running
So fast
To some far away land
To catch butterflies
So we can ask them what it is like to be happy
And they will tell us to never be afraid again
For we are stardust

Let Go

She's Out of Reach