7-1-10

your words haunt my dreams
the river was made of stars and you dove head first in to the sky
comets were getting tangled in your hair making it shine
and you swam through the night clouds while i stood worried on the ground
scared about the lack of oxygen
but your lips stayed rosey
"you don't need air," you said," if you're already an angel."
and you flew
weaving in and out of the sparkling stars
hands reaching down
begging for me to join you
"can't you see that you're beautiful?" you cried, "can't you see that you've always been an angel to me?"
but my feet float a foot off the ground and already my lips lose colour
and my head loses consciousness
and i collapse
grass in between my toes
ladybugs whispering in my ears
telling me to fight it
fight it and never give up
"fly," they said, "open your eyes and let go."
"let go!" you cried
tear drops falling from above
landing on my face
and your fear for me turned into such a reality as each tear drop burned a hole in my body
"look up!" you screamed
my eyes squeezed shut until my head hurt
"don't fight," i tell myself, "don't fight this."
i can feel your fingers search my body for my heart
and you pump it full of life
thump
thump
thump
it beats only for you
your finger tips pry open my lonely eyes
and i'm swimming in the sky with you
"never let go," my heart tells you, "never leave me."
I can only speak through my heart
and i'm shaking
"i just want you to see that you're okay, that you're an angel already," you cry to me
my mind reflects my soul into the ocean
and you are perfect
and i am yours
and you are mine
and i am beautiful